scooby dooby doo

well it sounds more like dooby dooby doo. lucien loves scooby and will bring us the tapes to put them on for him. portia has a pair of scooby slippers that lucien will point at and say "dooby dooby doo" it is so flippin' cute!!

geesh lucien is hell bent on trying to bust his lip everyday this week. it's like he is in some sort of race to see if he can beat a world record. after the incident this weekend i didn't think my heart could take anymore......i was wrong. yesterday portia and lucien were playing, running through the house, because i tell them all the time not to run in the house, it falls on deaf ears. lol

as they ran through the kitchen BAM lucien hit the open pantry door. i thought maybe he bumped his head but upon further inspection i see blood. oy sure enough he busted his bottom lip and it's bleeding like crazy. i kept trying to dab it with a towel so i could see if it was really bad because of all the blood. but he was very impatient with me and didn't want me to touch it just wanted me to hold him.

it only took him a few minutes to calm down and then he acted like nothing had happened. then later in the evening after chris had gotten home he was climbing all over the sofa, it's his personal jungle gym, and of course he sat too close to the edge with his back facing the coffee table he fell backwards and just barely clipped his head on the damn table. i expected blood and a big gash but nope no blood *phew* and we couldn't really feel a bump so maybe he didn't hit his head, could have been his arm or shoulder? he calmed down much faster then earlier.

just a few minutes ago he was climbing from the sofa table between the recliner and the sofa and slipped. one leg fell off the table and one stayed up. he landed face down on the arm of the sofa so i thought the padding had helped break the fall.......nope he busted his top lip and was bleeding a lot again. he is running out of lip and really scaring the crap out of me.

marina and jewel were so laid back compared to him & portia. portia was a wild one but she managed to have a much bigger gap between injuries. he is getting close to the age that portia had her run in with the ant pile. she went into anaphylactic shock and we were terrified. so we have been paying really close attention to any and all ant piles ever since. little did i know i would have much more to worry about with my wild little man. he makes my life totally exciting and scary all at the same time. lol

last night during our outside playtime i got some pics, well the first two pics are inside just before we went out. i finally set up the kids lemonade stand. it has been sitting in the package for a while. in september we plan to hold an official sale outside the profits will be donated to the fibromyalgia association.



these were hilarious cause it looks like someone shot frida and she just fell over and croaked. she was sleeping, chris said "hey you think frida is sun bathing?"

then she looked over at me as if saying "what do you want, can't you see i'm busy??"

i took a bunch of pics of new pieces and have been trying to list stuff every evening. yesterday i cleaned like crazy and chris was so happy. :) ah it's the little things huh?

such a boy

my neighbor said that about lucien once because while she was visiting he kept jumping from the coffee table onto the couch. she said "does he try to climb on the tv yet?" i said "no don't give him any new ideas!!" she laughed and said "oh he is such a boy". she has 2 older boys and a little girl all the same age as jewel, portia & lucien. lucien loves to give anaya big hugs when she visits and then they run around like mad playing, playing, playing.

lucien spent this weekend trying to prove that he is "such a boy" every evening he will bring us his shoes and shove them at us. that means put on my shoes so i can go out back and play! there are random spots in our backyard with stickers so the kids have to wear shoes, which sucks cause they don't like wearing shoes. so we go out back and play until it gets dark.
then we can come in give him a bath, some warm milk and it's only a matter of minutes before he crashes for the night. finally no more night owl *knock wood* don't want to jinx myself.

so on saturday he played out back for a super long time and when he came in i noticed he had little scratches here and there, nothing major, it reminded me of when i was a kid. my legs have a ton of scars from playing outside like a wild beast. so then on sunday morning i was doing the dishes, he likes to "help" me....yeah that means play with the water. lol

so i put up a step ladder next to the sink and give him a plastic cup & spoon to clean. when i was done with the dishes he wanted to play some more, so i put the water on a really slow heavy drip and put towels all around the bottom of the step ladder. so i was in the living room talking to chris when we hear lucien fall over chris was the first one in the kitchen and found lucien laying on the pile of towels.

we thought he scared himself falling and was just upset about that, he was crying pretty hard. chris is holding him and i'm trying to check him out when lucien reaches for me so i could hold him.....that is when we noticed the blood.....dun dun dun.......he had busted the inside of his top lip. so i'm focusing on that and just feeling horrible because he fell and i wasn't there to stop it from happening. bad bad mommy...

so i layed him down and was loving on him and smoothed the hair from his forehead back...CHEESE & CRACKERS....he has a huge bump on his forehead!! so at that point i was about to flip out and was thinking crap maybe we should take him to the emergency room. thank goodness chris can stay calm in those situations, he said first lets watch him and just see how he behaves. he is always telling me he is a little boy and will have many more bumps and bruises. i know i was a huge tomboy and did everything with my brother and adrian. lucky for me i didn't break my first bone until 14 and i did it playing football!!

so i watched lulu like a hawk and was positive that he was going to pass out and then i would really freak out and want to rush to the emergency room. lol i'm sure my brother remembers how freaked out i was when marina was around the same age and fell from that picnic table? oh i was wigging out and rick threatened to slap the shit out of me if i didn't pull myself together. lol we got in the car to head home (it was easter sunday and we had spent the entire day playing hard in the park) and she immediately passed out. i was sure that she had a concussion and that she was going to suffer some horrible damage to her melon, so i made rick and greg rush us to the emergency room.

i had no health insurance so i ended up with a huge bill and they used a butterfly stitch on her forehead. the e/r doctor thought it was sweet that i was so worried but did reassure me that all first time moms react that way. what is my excuse now? 4 kids later and i'm still flipping out at a bump on the head? my mom tells me that a mother never stops worrying about her babies no matter how old they get.

so anyway he was fine the rest of the day. he never napped or acted any different. he spent the day running like a wild beast, as he normally does, we went shopping at joann's and he walked chris all over the store the whole time we were there......which was a long time because they had one employee working the cutting table and lots of people that needed fabric cut. i had 6 bolts of felt that i needed to have pieces cut from and some dope wrapped those bolts way too big.

lulu did his usual screaming in the car....happy loud screech with a big 'ol grin. then we came home and he played until the late afternoon. chris went out to cut the backyard and lubug played on the swing set. he loves to swing. later when chris was done with the grass they played together on the trampoline. when it got dark chris brought him in, gave him a bath and put on scooby doo for him to watch. he says scooby dooby doo so flippin' cute!

we thought he would pass out but nope he ran around and played some more. he finally got tired and passed out around 10pm. so it made me feel much better and made me think that the bump didn't do much more than bruise his little noggin. it looks horrible today. it is purple and blue, the swelling has gone down a lot. matter of fact yesterday afternoon i was holding him and kissing him to make him giggle. well he started giving me kisses and pulling his head back. he would swing his head forward and make the "umm" noise well one time he swung too hard. BANG his head hit my top lip and i felt my teeth cut the inside of my lip open. DOH so now we both have busted lips. lol

it hurt so bad i had to put him down right away and i was grabbing at it. portia said wait mommy my kiss will make it feel better and she kissed me on the boo boo. awwww ain't she sweet?

we went through the same crazy wildness with portia but it has been so long we had forgotten. but everytime he does something crazy we remember oh yeah portia did that too. lol

when she was his age we lived in massachusetts. we had a big slope in the back yard and they loved to run down the hill, it was also good for sledding in the winter. we were outside one night and it started getting dark, well worcester doesn't have many streetlights so our backyard was lit only by our porch light. she started running down the hill towards the swingset and tripped over something in the yard. she went head first into the end of the slide!! i was watching the whole time and i screamed before she even hit the slide, i was on my feet and running to pick her up before she even landed. lol

i picked her up and brought her up to the porch to inspect the damage and that was when i realized that the warm feeling on my shoulder was not her hands but lots and lots of blood pouring from her nose. i ran up the back stairs like 3 at a time and got her into the apartment, i wanted to clean her up and make sure she didn't have a huge gash somewhere i couldn't see in the dark on the porch. luckily for us one of our downstairs neighbors was an e/r doctor. he came upstairs and checked her out. he said she would be fine and that her nose did not appear to be broken. he recommended waiting until monday (next day) to take her into her regular pedi instead of heading to the e/r. he said the same thing as the doc that saw marina "all mommy's freak out when they see blood, it's perfectly normal no matter how many kids you have"

marina had to work all day yesterday and then again today poor kid. but she is totally excited about receiving her 2nd paycheck. on saturday morning chris took her to open up a checking account she was so excited. our baby is getting so big and becoming an adult....i'm so very proud of her and how well she is adjusting to working. she is even being trusted to do the books a few nights a week!! she has only started this job about a month ago but they really like her and the owners of the restaurant treat her really good. she complains a little but i think secretly she is really proud of all the responsibility that they have given her.

portia is trying to keep busy, but she is lonely without jewel. i have tried crafty stuff, movies, playing outside, water sprinkler.....but she really misses jewel. and it is so hot here that you are roasting after 2 minutes outside. i really hate living here because of the horrible heat. i have wanted a cover for the back porch forever but chris keeps putting me off. i think that is what i'm going to ask for birthday present. ;)

oh and i almost forgot last night after chris gave lucien his bath they were upstairs. lu playing with his cars and chris sorting through his coins. chris went downstairs to wash off some coins and i was out in the garage, portia was in the front room downstairs. so we are not sure about where lu ventured around while chris was downstairs but we are pretty sure he stayed in the gameroom/craft room. chris came back upstairs and lucien was standing there naked, no surprise he does it all the time now that he has figured out how to get his diaper off. chris said in a joking tone "oh really?" but as he walked closer he realized something was not right.

lucien had poop smeared all over his chest, on his hands, smeared all over his butt and the dirty diaper was sitting on the floor. it was not a solid poop either it was good and runny.....according to chris "it was foul" lol so chris took him and plopped him in the bathtub and gave him another bath. when i came back inside i went upstairs to talk to chris and he was walking out of our room with lucien wrapped in a towel.

i said "what ya'll doing i thought you already gave him a bath?" he said "yeah well i had to give him another" after he explained to me what happened i laughed so hard and said "oh did you take pics?"....."no why not?" i take pics of everything and this would have been the perfect blackmail pic for when he starts dating. chris' response was "yeah well i had other things on my mind like where else did he smear it???"

ah they keep us on our toes.

why you crying

marina, portia and myself were eating lunch and decided to pop this dvd in to the player. we all laughed so hard.....so many memories of my childhood. lol
i love the whole thing but one of my favorite parts is part about how mexican mom's spank children in public without getting caught.



i love george lopez so much, the first time chris watched him with me he said "oh shit it's your family!!" :ROFL:

on tuesday i went to visit my friend maddy. she got a new puppy, a springer spaniel, he is the cutest little guy. her husband wanted to get a playmate for their lonely lab mojo. i had so much fun hanging out with her all afternoon, it was nice to get out of my house. chris was home cause i had an appointment that morning with my doc, i was getting test results so he wanted to be with me.

he took the day off so i could leave the kids with him to go and visit maddy. she lives in a house built in the 50's and it is not child proof....yet. her baby is only 3 months old so they don't have to worry about little prying hands. lucien would find a million things in her house to destroy. lol i love me kids something awful but i needed a break for a little while.

jewel is with my parents so portia is lonely and complains about it CONSTANTLY!! i finally snapped the other day and told her i did not want to hear her complain anymore or i would whip out the duct tape, i wish.

so having a visit with a friend without someone saying "mama mama mama mama" the whole time we are trying to talk was nice. we agreed that we should try to get together once a week, cause we both need human interaction and yes i need a break from my house. i don't want to become that homebody that never ever leaves the house. i have been having problems with my legs and my doc mentioned neuropathy, well hell i didn't know what it was so i didn't think about it just kinda shrugged and went on with my day.

then someone on punkymoms was talking about her diabetes and how neuropathy in the legs can eventually lead to amputation...WTF??!! so then i asked chris if he would still love me if i was nubby? i said would you rub me stump and then thought oh shit rock on i could have a peg leg like a true pirate. i could get those controls in my car to drive with and a groovy cool chair to cover in bumperstickers!! my point is that i won't let it get me down and i won't dwell on it i will just make the best of the situation. getting out of the house was the kick in the ass i needed to realize that.

oh and of course the next day i paid for all of my activity and chris came home and asked "what did you do today?" as in besides sit on your ass? he was trying to ask without sounding like a total ass but it came across that way anyway. we had a long talk and i agreed that i've been like a lump on a pickle and i need to change that and try to be a little more active.

i quit giving myself the injections of atp about a month ago so my energy level sort of tanked. i just couldn't keep sticking myself in the leg every week. i loved the results but man those needles are like the size of a fucking garden hose. so at my last visit i talked to the doc about it and she said "oh we have it in pill form too" well shit why didn't you tell me about that before?? so i started taking the pills and hopefully that will bring my energy stores back up. they should be at 30 and right now they are at 19, not too bad but still feeling so flippin' tired all the time.

so we are crossing our fingers and hoping that the pills will help me be myself again. he said he just misses the old me that used to be super active and did so much around the house. i was always cooking, cleaning, doing stuff with the kids and now i'm just not able to keep up. it also doesn't help that my laptop is like a crack pipe to me. i could (and do sometimes) sit around with it all day.

the upside to that is i have been making a lot of pieces for the shop. i just don't ever get around to actually taking pics and posting any of it. so last night i took lucien outside to play and took a bunch of pics while he was running around. later today i hope to have some stuff listed.

i made some groovy cool star wars resin pendants.




i have some other stuff too

bluegrass

yes i love bluegrass, maybe it has to do with where i grew up. podunk little town where the big action was mothers pizza, pool anyone??

chris waited 6 years to marry me, guess he finally decided to buy the cow after all of the free milk he had been getting. lol i used to sing this song to him and it always cracked him up.



or maybe he was waiting to see if i would settle down properly? yes when i met my chrissy i was a bit of a wild woman.....okay a lot. i really did not want to get all caught up in a relationship with anyone because it had only been around 8 months since my last serious breakup.

we met in a bar and everyone i knew thought heh it will never work. we were both at this bar because our friends wanted to be there....it was a country music place and we were both not fans, but we were each with our best friends. i was walking behind him and touched his beautiful long hair, he turned to see who was doing it and smiled the sweetest smile, i was hooked and so was he.

my friend was waiting for me outside because she had been kicked out of the bar...doh. i was supposed to be looking for a friend of hers that had her housekey. so i kept walking but kept thinking about that cute guy. i was standing there looking around the crowd and chris and his friend walked up to me. his friend offered to buy me a drink and my bubble burst, i thought well crap i was not interested in you at all. lol

his friend introduced chris and the friend and i chatted. the whole time chris stood there so quiet i thought he was so not into me. of course i know now that he is just extremely shy around new people and to this day will do the same thing, just sit quietly and let me yap away. so i invited them to come hang out with me and my friends at shauna's apartment. the friend said chris would love to go but i need to get going, in my mind i was shouting YES!! score he is interested.

we went to shauna's and hung out all night. he spent the night and we cuddled on the futon but didn't even share a kiss. in the morning i offered to take him to pick up his car at his friends house. when we pulled up and i saw that it was a sports car i thought oh shit i hate guys with little fast cars, i was totally stereo typing him as a pretentious ass.

so i gave him my number he gave me his and right before he stepped out of my car he gave me a little peck..awww. i felt like bobby brady with the fireworks going off in my head. but all i could think of was please don't slip me the tongue cause i haven't brushed my teeth, he didn't and i thought he was such a gentleman. later i found out he was thinking the same thing about his lack of a clean teeth.

i thought well that was nice but i will probably never hear from him again. i was wrong he called and asked me out on a proper date. i offered to pick him up because his car had no a/c and well i don't do well without a/c. we went to eat at carrabba's and then went to the movies to see city of angels. he cried at the end and i thought oh my gawd this dude is such a keeper. during the movie he held my hand and those damn fireworks were back.

from that point on we were inseperable, i spent a lot of time at his apartment and very little time at my house. after about a month we decided to move in together. we lived in his apartment until the lease was up and then looked for an apartment that would fit all of us, me chris jewel & marina. we were only together for about 3-4 months when surprise i got pregnant with portia.

my mother loved him from the moment she met him and of course my father hated him and behaved like a royal asshole. while i was pregnant his parents came to meet me for the first time and i loved them. the first thing his mom said to me was "you are so beautiful" what a sweet opening line. they also loved my kids and we all got along so well. our visit was divine and i didn't want it to end.

when portia was born he was so extremely happy and such a proud papa. he dove right into fatherhood and never looked back. but i knew he would be great at it cause he adored my girls and the first time jewel said his name it was so sweet. she would follow him around just repeating kiss kiss cause she couldn't say chris. eventually marina asked him "can i call you daddy" i think that just melted his heart. he is daddy in every sense of the word. usually he would make it clear to people that he was their stepdad but a wise old man told him that there is no such thing as a stepdad you are either dad or you aren't. i wanted to hug and kiss that old man like crazy, so he never tells anyone that he is stepdad just "i'm jewel & marina's dad"

last night before he went to bed he kissed me good night and i told him that i still love kissing him so much. 10 years later and i'm just so in love that sometimes i just stare at him and thank my lucky stars that we accidentally happened to be in that bar. i cannot imagine what my life would be like without him and don't ever want to know.

i love you chris and next to our children you are the greatest joy i have ever had the privilege to have in my life.

summertime

my least favorite season.....cause it's too damn hot!!!

gah it's definitely summer, it is flippin' hot here and the kids are going stir crazy! lucien loves having them at home all day and fights sleep so hard at night, guess he worries that something will happen and he won't be a part of it. yesterday he woke up at 8:30 then didn't go to sleep until almost 1am. i was so tired and ready for him to crash.

i got a new camera last month, second hand but new to me. i have been trying to figure out how to use it, it has a million buttons and records video with sound yay!! my old camera recorded video but no sound so all i have are silent films. lol i still have to figure out how to record more than a few seconds of video at one time. so i keep reading the manual and still can't figure it out. doh

i've been using the late night time to work on stuff. everybody is usually in bed and i'm sitting around with lucien waiting for him to zonk out. i made a bunch of resin pieces in ice cube trays and then hunted very hard to find c-rings & the pliers to clamp them with. they are not easy to find locally and i ended up at a feed store up the road. the lady asked me what i was going to do with them and when i told her make jewelry she looked at me like i was looney.

so i made two bracelets day before yesterday.


these are fried marbles that i hope to make into suncatchers and jewelry.



i started this blog the other day and had to stop because my parents came into town. i thought they were coming the next day....oops. and now that they have left i must get some shit off my chest. why the fuck does my dad come to visit us??!! everything fucking annoys him and he is constantly in a bad mood unless he is drunk.......hmmm happy memories of my childhood.

my mom says oh that is just the way he is, you have to ignore him like i do.....um no i'm not married to him why should i force myself to "deal" with it. he gets here sits at the dining room table and pouts if we don't all sit and chat at the the damn table. i had plans to watch a movie on friday when they showed up early, my mom said they would be here on saturday. so i sat down and started watching it. my father kept trying to talk to everyone through the movie and when we didn't talk back...because we were watching the movie......he became sullen and pouty.

and i realized that almost everything out of his mouth was something negative about someone else......us, people in the movie, people in general. oy he just doesn't seem to have any happy or positive thoughts. we went outside to pop fireworks and cherri's kids came over to light sparklers he even tried to get grumpy with them.

they were here to pick up portia and jewel for a visit with them at their house. well my dad eventually shot that all to shit cause portia came down saturday night crying hysterically that she did not want to go, i think that spending a few days with him here opened her eyes up to behavior she did not want to deal with alone. jewel has thicker skin and can tolerate his crap better......not that she should have to but i think she is old enough to make the decision to visit her grandparents. she was the one who wanted to go visit them.

most of the time he was here this weekend he was mad/crabby/sullen. so saturday night i asked him why he didn't consider taking cymbalta or effexor, well i guess i should have just asked him to take it up the ass cause he got so pissy with me. he snapped at me "BECAUSE I'M NOT DEPRESSED!!" as if there were some shame in admitting depression. so i calmly answered back "i didn't say you were depressed dad i just thought maybe there was a reason you didn't want to try the medication like side effects"

well after that he didn't really speak to me and eventually went to bed. all the while complaining as he walked up the stairs about how bad the pain was and how he was not gonna be comfortable no matter which bed he slept on....he said that cause my mom suggested he sleep on the bunk with the extra cushion top mattress.

we are all supposed to go to schlitterbahn for my birthday next month. this was his idea, i don't know why since most kids bug the shit out of him and mine are just mis-behaved little brats. he will be surrounded at the water park. i'm totally wanting to back out of it now but my kids and my mom were really looking forward to this trip.

i even tried to make nice with him and sat down and made some earrings for his mom. i thought if i specifically made a gift for my grandma it would cheer him up. he is always super happy when i make stuff for her.....nope not even a thanks. oh well i love my parents but man oh man my dad has been miserable all my life, unless he is drunk. *sigh*

so anyway onto good happy stuff. :) we tried very hard not to let my grump-a-lump dad get us down. like i said on friday we watched a movie together, michael moore's sicko. i have wanted to see it since it was in the theater, i loved it. of course at the end i was crying and more angry at the state of our health care system. i was also already making plans to move to ummm i don't know france maybe. lol i've always heard the gripes about universal health care but it was nice to see actual residents of the different countries speak about it first hand.

then we all ate big daddy's bbq, which i think is another gripe of my fathers, i don't cook all the time for my family and my house is generally a crazy mess of toys.

later my mom and i went shopping at joanne's and i got some crafty supplies. then we went to the grocery store to buy stuff to make taco's for dinner. then to the firework stand to buy some cute zippy, bright fireworks and tons of sparklers.
after dinner when it got dark we took the kids outside to set them off, we even let lucien hold a sparkler for a few seconds with daddy's help. he loved all the noise and bright lights. around here any ol' schmoe can set off fireworks even the gigantor huge ones and they were going off all over the neighborhood. my father griped about that too, reminds him of vietnam and i think it sets off ptsd..but he doesn't need medication. doh *slapping my forehead*

on saturday morning my dad sat at the dining room table and pouted about who knows what then he went upstairs and avoided everyone for a few hours. then my mom suggested they go to traders village (big flea market) well we all would have liked to have gone but i think my dad wanted time away from my kids so i volunteered to stay home with the kids and told chris to go with them. there is a coin place there he wanted to check out.

when they got back chris gave me a present. a groovy cool lime green watch. i asked how he knew that i have been wanting a watch and he said he had no idea. my mom said it's our 'connection' :) it's so pretty, i'm wearing it now.

while they were gone the marina and i watched running with scissors, funny movie and annette bening plays the nutjob mom so well. later we watched the nanny diaries another cute movie. i read both of those books so i have been wanting to see the movies for a while. the whole time we watched the second movie my dad sat at the dining room table complaining about all the different pains he was experiencing that day.....notice a pattern?

late in the day i took the kids out back and played with them in the water hose, they had a blast. i will upload the pics to our flickr when i'm done here. i also made another attempt to be sweet to my dad and offered him one of my pots of morning glorys cause he had said before how much he likes those flowers. i got a sort of grunt of thanks. lol

mom, marina and i stayed up late watching tv and i made more jewelry while we were sitting around. this morning we were woke up by the house alarm being set because they were leaving. i had asked my mom to wake me up so i could say goodbye to jewel and they didn't even bother. *shrug* who understands their thinking.

so now we are enjoying the peaceful non-bitching comfort of my dad being gone. :) i will veg and work on some more jewelry. i'm so glad he has gone home.... sad i feel that way but oh well. now lucien can be a toddler without worrying about upsetting the grumpy abuelo.