new sewing machine

i finally got my new sewing machine and i love love love it. this is the first brand new machine i have ever owned. all my other ones were hand me downs or bought second hand, except my serger i did buy that brand new. i love my old singers but needed something with a free arm. i have had so much fun using this new machine. i love the start/stop button, i can sew without having to use the foot pedal, which is great when my legs are really bothering me.

i also really like the up/down needle button, so when i stop sewing i can make the needle stop down in the fabric or up out of the fabric. it has speed control and will tell me exactly where the stitch length and width need to be set to sew an even stitch. it is very quiet compared to my other machines. i spent sunday afternoon decorating it so it is truly 'my' machine. chris came into the room and said "now i know why the kids like to put stickers and draw on everything they own" yeah well freedom of expression is something that was stifled in my childhood home so i won't do it to my kiddos. :)

i've already made little stuffed birds, cloth napkins, and some cuffs that are meant for coffee cups (like starbucks) but since i don't drink coffee i will probably use them on my soda cans/cups.

yesterday chris and i had our first appointment with our new therapist. i really like her and will be visiting with her alone and with chris. she believes i am clinically depressed and suffering from post partum depression. she basically compared it to ptsd because i have suffered a trauma that is opening up a lot of wounds from the past. she made it clear that it will take as long as it takes to work through it and that i have a right to feel sad, angry, etc.

i'm hoping for the best and just trying to make it day by day.

some new stuff

a couple of weeks ago my mom was visiting and i had some free time to work on some projects. while she is here lucien can put his head up her butt instead of mine. :)

i made a few necklaces.
one for my mom



one for portia's teacher for valentines day



and one just because.... it is hard to see in the pic but this one has some beautiful dichroic glass beads that remind me of hard candy. they have a really nice orange tint to them, irl.


i also made some felt food for the kids. i have several other pieces that i have finished but need to take pics of those.





tomorrow night i have an appointment for a sleep study. i had my regular 3 month follow up with my doc on friday and she ordered this test. i also had to have another mri done, that was horrible. i had a panic attack while in the machine and totally lost my shit. i was a crying hysterical mess when i left the office. i think i scared everyone in the waiting room. doh

they think they got what they needed so hopefully it won't have to be repeated. i was supposed to have the contrast dye injection but didn't last long enough for that part of the test. good thing too cause i didn't really feel comfortable having that stuff injected into me. i need to make a cape with a super weenie logo, cause that is what i am. :(

i hope that tomorrow night will be like an overnight mini-vacation. all alone in a bed by myself, i won't know what to do. i'm so used to being squashed in our bed with lucien and chris. i hope i'm actually able to get some sleep.